I’m sorry.

I screwed up things yet again. I wish I hadn’t. And it hurts me that it turned out the way it did. I didn’t mean for it to go. It was such a terrible and disgusting display. And this shall forever be burnt in my memory and eyes.

The way how I had tried to clamp your mouth which turned out to look so violent. It must’ve looked so bad and so terribly unfeminine of me. Then the part you had pushed me away just as roughly. Followed by you pushing me way harder. That was when i felt myself being flung towards my cupboard door. Then i saw you raise your palm to what was to me, in readiness to slap me. I had shock, hurt and anger all at once.

It all looked wrong, as i stood there half dressed and facing you. You had the look of anger drawn on your face. I shall forever remember when i clashed with the door in the outburst of it.

Hurt and pain feels my chest. All I see are my tears now and the look on your face…