DO you ever get the feeling sometimes that whatever it is that you are is not really you?

I’ll be straight I just got into a fight with my other half and even though – I was maybe the one that started the whole thing by first taking something I wasn’t suppose to, followed by me apologizing but then putting up a defense for it – I dont care!!!

I don’t blardy care.

Why? Cause I have this thing, where I don’t want him to win! No, I am not going to give in. Other people can may be scare or whatever it is by him, but I AM NOT going to give him the satisfaction of thinking that people are scared of him. I am not!

So yeah I am thoroughly pissed off right now and I’m trying my best to control my temper, not get a headache in the process and most importantly pop a vein!!! I am capable of blowing a fuse, and I ain’t there yet, but I am close to it! So I’m just letting off steam. I don’t care if you can read this, I don’t care who the heck sees this. I am ticked! And I’m going to express it.

I am not going to let him win! And if it means not talking to him fine! So be it. He wants to be mad or whatever I don’t care. You wanna hit me for making noise while you play the guitar go ahead! But I am not going to give the satisfaction that you can SCARE ME!

No!

If you wanna pick a fight or whatever… go ahead….. I DARE YOU!!

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I feel minorly better.