Today in acting class…was a really long day.
I have this tendency. When I do something, and I don’t do it well, i tend to beat myself about it. Reason being that I’ve already set my mine to want to do it, get it down right and show that I have. But that wasn’t the case today. It also got me really frustrated because, i kept trying and trying and trying. Over and over again and it just wasn’t working out for me.
See we have this thing called ‘Appearances’ in class. Where you are standing on one end of the room, walk out onto the middle of the stage, face the audience and perform a particular emotion with your body. Hold the position and then walk off the stage. The emotions we have to do are joy, sorrow, anger, fear, love and lastly lust. The best part of this exercise which i appreciate it for is, that i trains you to go from one emotion to another real quickly. But that would also mean you have to be extremely sharp and prepared before you do a particular move. It would seem that most actors would have a problem with the appearance exercise. At the beginning of the class, you wouldn’t understand why, but now having done it…
We have to do all of it at the snap of a finger continuously.
Snap, Joy
Snap, Sorrow
Snap, Anger
Snap, Fear
Snap, Love
Snap, Lust
It’s a great exercise, but it’s a darn headache. I find that, the last one has been a sore weakness over the couple of weeks, as it is for most people. It’s not easy mind you! Forgetting that though, yeah I was ticked off and disappointed with myself… great now get over it and figure out how to FIX IT!
But what I didn’t realise today was how lust means other things as well. It doesn’t always have to mean sexual desire or want. It could be lust for life, lust for power, lust for money, greed.. whatever…
Which I thanks God that someone mentioned today, because at least now it gives me more variety to play around with. Rather than sticking to one emotion for the stupid lust! It’s a real pain in butt!!! So I don’t care, I’m going to just prepare my brains out with ideas and just do whatever! Hah! Eat that!
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Dear Lord, please help me on that! Please please.. pretty please.
