It is just one of those days, where I don’t know what to make of things. It’s 12.37 and I’m tired. But what has got me even more tired, is that I’m disheartened. Why? Because I keep hearing about negative about something, which i’m trying so hard to fight for, I’m trying to get involved and get myself out there as much as I can in what I hope to do. And it just really breaks my heart when people tell me that I can’t or that it is not worth it. More so I would hear this from the people around me, those that are closest to me. And it really just annoys me at first, but after a while, i’ll get upset over it.

In my heart, at some point maybe I want to be in denial and just have some faith that what I dream for can someday be a reality. That there is a reason why people fight for certain things in life and it doesn’t matter how painful it or even how ridiculous it is. But it’s what they wish to go for. I’m debating here between passion and career.

Really why work all the time, if it is something you don’t like. Why even bother? And so what if the passion you yearn for, makes one come home late at night, makes one have to spend countless hours waiting, or makes one just spend hours of preparation.

I’m just disheartened about how opportunities just come by so slowly.