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[custom_field limit="1" between=", " /]What matters most in a persons life? Is it family? Is it your career? Is it financial freedom? Is it what people think of you? Is it your idealistic dreams? What really matters most? I’ve questioned that a lot this year.. and maybe i’m still struggling with an answer. Some people i guess would think any one of those are important enough to be the thing that matters most in ones lifetime. Everyday we work hard to achieve something but what are we really trying to strive for? Is it for acceptance when we do a good job? Is it to find the ‘perfect soulmate’? Is it so we can say to ourselves oh great i’ve made this much of money this year, and this can go straight to my savings? What the heck is the point of all of that…? Materialistically it’s pointless, cause at the end of the day you can’t take anything with you when you pass on. Finding the love of your life, it’s only going to be taken away from you when you pass on. What are you really going to say at the end of the day with your life… However reading Rick Warren’s “The Purpose Driven® Life: What on Earth Am I Here For?“. I know there is more to life than all that was stated above. I don’t really know who to explain it with meager words… nor with out some people thinking that it is cheesy… Just to share a little bit. This year was a topsy turvy time. I was disappointed a lot, still am in some ways. Disappointed with my own behavior, dissapointed with the people around me. People whom you’ve known for a long while let you down. Could be a close friend, could be a relative.. doesn’t matter. Anyone can let you down. Disappointed with work. Things where you were once comfortable will be shaken. Things that you thought were fine are actually not. Your securities in work won’t be there for you… All those are variables. But there is only one person Who won’t and He kept me sane… My Mighty Father in Heaven. Everything else in life is a variable and I’m glad that He isn’t. He is for ever constant. He will never change. And that is why I realise that you should live for no one else but for the Father. He’s the only thing that is significant, to work for, to strive for, to love. For He is Love… What matters most in life… the people whom you can try to love… “Love is a choice you make and you are blessed when you love even if you don’t feel like it.” – kerrvillechurch Oh Lord, I pray that you will teach me your ways. Teach me to forgive and teach me to love. Even when i do not feel like loving. Teach me to be exactly what Love is, as it is stated in you Book of Life. Love is everything, for without Love i am nothing.
“Life Is Like Box of Chocolates” A famous line from the movie with Tom Hanks in Forrest Gump. I think it’s pretty true actually. Just having a thought on it, in life we go through all sorts of events. Imagine each chocolate as a situation you are in. In a box of chocolates like this one, you’ll go through a variety of chocs with different fillings in them. From the external view, everything looks about the same. All the chocolates look equally just as tempting and yummy. You don’t know what to expect but you just randomly pick one of them anyway. With a simple hope that the one you pick is going to taste nice and not have some gooey and overly sweet filling hidden inside (which is usually the case – I get coned on that all the time ^_P)

Box of Chocolates

So what will it be? Truffles? Nougat? Raspberry? Orange? Rum?

Chocolates

Who knows what you’re going to get? For all you know the first one tastes great then the next choc will taste like crap. We can’t tell… and this is provided you do NOT have a chart that tells you what chocolate filling is in each chocolate mold. Life is like that too I suppose. You don’t know what to expect and even if you did..it can’t always turn out the way you hope they would. Oh yeah and while some chocolates maybe great tasting on the first go, but later on you end up getting a stomach ache from it. I call those bad chocs or those that disappoint ^_P. What other ways can we call life? The wonderful mystery of the world.
Well..I’ve been out of McCann for nearly 3 weeks now and to be honest at first I was a bit scared when i  quit my job. What was I going to do for cash? What was I going to do when my credit card bills came? What was I going to do about food? Worse still what the heck was I going to do when suddenly I got the urge to buy things I don’t really need. As much as it had saddened me a lot to leave McCann cause it felt like I had to say goodbye to another family, I’ve grown attached too. I’ve made some good friends and could see what the pains were like of a typical 9-5 job. Learnt and matured a lot while I was in McCann… of course I can always improve much more. But on the other hand, I’m glad that I have the free time now, to concentrate on crazy things. Hah… On another hand, i’ll say that I’m still sheltered, because I still stay with my family, I don’t really have to worry about paying rent, about my next meal and I don’t have to worry about supporting my family all that much. I have it easier, which is good to.. allowing me to really muck and concentrate on what it is I want to do. Put it this way, bumming right now is not really bumming for me. Heh. Yes I can be considered very free, but what I have been shoving down my nose is practically every single audition that I see out there and I’ve just been going for them. I still need to find some sort of income though. Down the line.. i know i’m going to be terribly broke.. ai…
I have been going through my school times and you know what… I just started smiling to myself.. heeheh. I had some fun times in SSU. Granted it’s not the BEST school in the world, but it was enough. :) As you grow up and then you look back at yourself. It really does make you want to laugh. I mean in school as a young teen, I really felt like such a teeny bopper to some extent hahaha. Liking the likes of actors such as Devon Sawa and the recent Backstreet Boys concert down in KL, reminded me how much we were all gaga over them then…. and at the same time we poked fun about their lifestyles as well. We used a number of their songs in school plays.. and ooo i found this picture on Facebook which really made me smile :)

Mowgli’s Fantasia Can you guess which is me? And I remember as a teen, I admit to being a rather spoilt brat and a bit of ‘mean girl’ at times (even though if you ask me I don’t know why). To some extent I’ll say it was the whole thing of being pretentious from too much TV where you have the popular group and the outcasts. It sounds so terribly silly now. At one point I considered myself in the popular group till an unfortunate mishap happened, which i shall not get into the details. Which then made me start to think … what’s the point of bothering who is in the happening group or not? If anything it’s because of these ridiculous notions that you are ‘great’ that’s why you have kids getting depressed, insecure, unsure of themselves.. Also looking back, you see all the ridiculous stuff you did, like being childish and trying to get attention. Or worse when you consider the possibilities of ‘crushes’. hahaha I remember i had a crush on a couple of friends in my days.. i’m not telling who! But oh gosh the dreaded crushes.. eeek… Really really I want to laugh at all that now. In fact it reminds me so much of the Romy and Michelle’s High School Reunion.

Romy and Michelle High School Reunion

Two misfits in school that go back to their high school reunion, to find that everyone is successful and where are they? Lol.. All the way down to maybe the failures and happy times in life. I miss the good ol’ days when basketball was a weekly thing. My first boyfriend came from there and I always imagined that I’d have a cute (ok at least presentable) guy by me side and who would love to play b-ball with me as much as i’d love playing it… Ohhh the joy of the game. When i met Mister G.. i really wondered whether I had as much as he did in his school days and uni days. To some extent maybe not as much. But I still enjoyed them no less. My life is fairly boring hahah. But the people around me are the ones that give me the stories to tell :)