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Resolutions. Is there even a point of creating one. Every year after the new year horn has been blown, some of us will think about what kind of resolution we want to make for the year. And every year those resolutions are never going to be met, with people making up some excuse for it. Isn’t that silly. Resolutions might as well not be made at all. Here are my 5 reasons for why I think resolutions always fail. 
  1. Not being realistic  Some people will make the most propostrous resolution. For example… big example. “I’m going to make a million dollars this year”. Ok if you are like some brain child and you come up with the cure for cancer or something ok I believe that maybe you can. Come on no way can you make a million dollars in a year in profit. I don’t think it’s practical anyway. Besides the minute you get cash you’ll spend most if not all of it. It also doesn’t help when you have ‘too many’ goals you want to meet. Making you unsure of what it is that is most important on your so called to do list.   

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  2. Excuses “I’m seriously going to lose weight this year”. After a while you’ll make an excuse like, oh I don’t have enought time to go to the gym or jog or whatever. There goes the weight lost program. “I’ll maybe have just one burger and I’m done.” Nuh uh that one burger will lead to a french fry and a pizza, beer, cake or whatever it is. So excuses will kill your resolutions. 

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  3. Determination Fails  When we set a goal, how much do you want it. Seriously? I speak behalf of my behaviour as well. Do you really want it bad enough that you will do whatever it takes? Will ya push yourself to get it. (Ok i’m talking about working out, here – you have to push). Or like you want to start a business, will you sacrifice your entertainment side to work hard. Determination. Do we have it? 

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  4. Unsupportive Circles  Doesn’t help man, when you hang out with people that are unmotivated and no only that they don’t even support you on your resolution. Putting you down will make you give up. It’ll be good if you can find people with the same goals as you. That’s the hard part. Finding people who are  just as gung ho as you.  
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  6. Forgetting your resolution At the beginning of the year, you’ll be all gung ho to make and do something. But give it a week, you’ll stop having that “I’m GONNA DO IT” feeling”. It’ll become more of “Huuh… i remember I was suppose to do something.. what was it? Oh nevermind it’ll come to me.” Something along those lines. In that sense, you gotta keep reminding yourself what was

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  Anyway that was good to just see the reasons. I mean the whole point of making a resolution is to set a goal for yourself to meet by the end of the year. Isn’t it? While on the way driving back from Penang I was talking to Mister G. We both started talking on goals for the year. For him he figures, not much point in making a resolution. So what he decided was to have a resolution that is in some ways more practical. He’s goal this year “Is be able to look back at 2009 and say that you know what I achieved something. And it’s worthwhile.” Reasonable, no!? Makes it easier too, it’s just one goal.  As for me… I have too many things I want to do. These are my top three things… List yet agian lol. In priority order.  
  1. Resolution #1 – Portfolio  Be in a film. And not just an extra again, but a film that at least will show something for my skills.   
  2. Resolution #2 – Personal Spend more time with the family and don’t get irritated with Mister G so much. (That’s two but falls in the same category)     
  3. Resolution #3 – Health Be really serious about my diet and health. All I’ve got to sell is my being. I’m not a walking billboard but if I don’t take care of my body, along with whatever assets and skills I may have. Nothing is going to sell. 
I think it’s fairly realistic. Not too many things too. 
But my main goal this year. Is to at least do a good movie. One solid movie. Last year my goal was to be in one production. In the end I was in more than just one. So bonus on my end. This year, i have to do something productive that can help me move. As the Japanese say… GAMBATE!!! and also in the words of Nike… once again  - JUST DO IT! Bring it ON 2009! I’m gonna bulldose right through you.
Today was I having a rerun of some movies I got stored on my hard disk. And it just so happens that most of the movies i have are comedies with Adam Sandler starring in them. Which got me watching his movie ‘Click’ again.  Adam Sandler is best known as the movie comedian. Hard to actually take most of his films seriously since they are always shown in a lighthearted manner. However i think that is the best thing about the stuff he’s done so far. Like ‘Click‘ and ‘You Don’t Mess With The Zohan‘, both touched on certain topics that left poignant thoughts in your head.  What I just adored about ‘Click’, was despite all the goofy moments, words and actions. In the end there was a stronger message that Adam was hoping to share with it. Which was family comes first before your work or career. I think every one can relate to that problem. Do you pick your career or do you pick quality times with your family? Even more so when you don’t just have one family but you also have the family of a partner. Just too many things to consider – on that note anyway. How often do we just go through life not really enjoying it with your loved ones. Just watching it pass by because we are rushing to get to some bigshot promotion or whatever it is that one aims for. It’s a good thing for one to just sit back, take a breather and spend time with the things that matter.   

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‘Click’ touched me, like no comedy movie has done. And even though I’ve seen it easily 4-5 times now. It still makes me tear at the part where Adam’s character, Michael Newman, finds out that his father had passed away so he goes to the last moment he saw his dad. The last time he saw his dad it ended on a bad note because he was on ‘autopilot’ causing him to only be bothered about his work. That was also the last time he heard his father say he loved him.  Another part of the movie that got me tearing again, was the very ending when he was trying to catch up with his grown up son who was about to leave the hospital. The shot and set up was fantastic. With him running in the rain to get to his son, Ben and when he ends up tripping over his feet. He has to squeeze every once of his energy to scream for Ben. Ben suddenly drops the umbrella and runs to Michael. That cracked and moved me.  I feel this is his best work in terms of acting anyway. Sure may not be that different, but i just love movies that make you think about life. Topics that touch right here at the heart. It’s movies like – in my opinion – that stays close to home and makes a difference in lives. Click is a great for a laugh and also for some good loving thoughts on family.
This is not something I’m feeling now and I’m not getting emo. I just felt like writing something on the things that break a heart. My heart in particular and the situations when they have been broken.
  1. The day I found out that I had to put my dog to sleep. I had to swipe the credit card which was to pay for him being put down. I had just gotten back from Penang that day and the first thing I had to do was head down to the vet, because everyone else was busy that day. My aunt had picked me up from the LRT and i settled the bill. Was pretty bad.. i didn’t think that it would’ve shook me up that much, since I had already known that he had to go to sleep. I didn’t hit me till i got to the vet, that he was gone. It’s a terrible feeling, to instantly know at that moment you lost something… even more so that it was a life. May not have been a person, but it was still a life..
  2. The first time, I heard someone swear at me F*** Y**, and it is someone very close to me. Till this day, the memory of it is still in my head and I can still envision how the words were uttered at me. It can bring a tear to my eye, for it really did hurt me.
  3. The occasions when i had some really bad arguments with my other half. They were really very bad and it was a bad pow wow. Words that that weren’t meant were exchanged, as a defense mechanism. I thought there was a sure break from there, from the way we both stormed away from one another. Calls were refused..this was all in a day by the way. Fights like these really are a pain…
  4. The times, that I lose my temper and I end up going into a real tantrum with the people I’m close to. It is at those times, that I really hate myself for losing it. Of late I have been losing it and I don’t know why.. maybe it’s the lack of sleep, but i’ve been getting terribly irritated. When I snap, that’s when my heart breaks because I know I can look like a lil monster. When i start to be that monster, I know i’m letting not just myself down but the people whom i care about as well and it stabs me in the heart. Related with number 3..4 is also one of those things, which I know that is just not appealing to God’s eyes and that I’m behaving in a way which is unbecoming. The thought that I know this breaks God’s heart breaks mine directly.
  5. …… I just realised… I don’t have a fifth thing that breaks my heart… and I want to keep it that way..
Ok I’m done with my “emo” post for today.
Keep It Simple and Sweet. Keep It Simple and Short. Keep It Simple Stupid! Those are the main three things of how you would give the full version for K.I.S.S. Keeping things simple is always a great idea. I often make the mistake of sometimes doing things over the top, over exaggerating something, or just even in my design. I would want to shove so many things into something that I forget what my main purpose of designing something is even for. Or even maybe when it comes to talking, one can ramble on and on about something. When what they should be doing is just keeping it nice and short. Straight to the point and not go over flamboyant. The simplest things are the best things. Even when giving a gift, a small thing like a flower from the ground (preferably a live one of course and not one thats left on the road! ) or even a card or an sms to say something nice to another person, perks somebody up or tells them you care. So yes.. K.I.S.S people!
Sometimes, we take life at blinding speed. Everything happens so fast, changes that come out of where, ups and downs in a week. Joy that sometimes overwhelms you only to have a roller-coaster crash down to something which suddenly gets you all twisted up in side. Comfort zones, moved a bit and we find ourselves trying to adapt. Just need to slow down. To take control of the reigns and get yourself back on the horse again. Take a deep breath and focus. I want to let go and actually let myself fall for a while, but I know that if do I’ll waste time. So no.. I can’t fall but I need to just be free to think and recollect my thoughts on things. I absolutely love this song and it’s by the lovely actress Emmy Rossum. Rather hypnotic but it’s what i need at this point.

rushing and racing and running in circles moving so fast I’m forgetting my purpose blur of the traffic is sending me spinning getting nowhere

my head and my heart are colliding chaotic pace of the world I just wish I could stop it Try to appear like I’ve got it together I’m falling apart

save me somebody take my hand and lead me slow me down don’t let love pass me by just show me how cause I’m ready to fall

slow me down don’t let me live a lie before my life flies by I need you to slow me down

sometimes I fear that I might disappear in the blur of fast forward I falter again forgetting to breathe I need to sleep I’m getting nowhere

all that I’ve missed I see in the reflection pass me while I wasn’t paying attention tired of rushing, racing and running I’m falling apart

tell me oh won’t you take my hand and lead me slow me down don’t let love pass me by just show me how cause I’m ready to fall

slow me down don’t let me live a lie before my life flies by i need you to slow me down

just show me i need you to slow me down slow me down slow me down

the noise of the world is getting me caught up chasing the clock and i wish i could stop it just need to breathe somebody please slow me down It fascinates me that this young lady could come up with this song. It’s so ethereal. Emmy Rossum can sing people! The first time I heard her sing it was as Christine Daae in the movie Phantom of the Opera. I didn’t think much of it because i was comparing it too much to the ever wonderful singer Sarah Brightman.

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Remember this girl from The Day After Tomorrow , Poseidon , The Phantom of the Opera and oh my gosh!!! She’s acting as Bulma in Dragonball.. ohh please let them make a good rendition of that Japanese anime.