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2009 Resolutions

Linora Low — Mon, 05 Jan 2009 06:02:52 +0000

Resolutions. Is there even a point of creating one. Every year after the new year horn has been blown, some of us will think about what kind of resolution we want to make for the year. And every year those resolutions are never going to be met, with people making up some excuse for it. Isn’t that silly. Resolutions might as well not be made at all. Here are my 5 reasons for why I think resolutions always fail.

Not being realistic Some people will make the most propostrous resolution. For example… big example. “I’m going to make a million dollars this year”. Ok if you are like some brain child and you come up with the cure for cancer or something ok I believe that maybe you can. Come on no way can you make a million dollars in a year in profit. I don’t think it’s practical anyway. Besides the minute you get cash you’ll spend most if not all of it. It also doesn’t help when you have ‘too many’ goals you want to meet. Making you unsure of what it is that is most important on your so called to do list.
Excuses “I’m seriously going to lose weight this year”. After a while you’ll make an excuse like, oh I don’t have enought time to go to the gym or jog or whatever. There goes the weight lost program. “I’ll maybe have just one burger and I’m done.” Nuh uh that one burger will lead to a french fry and a pizza, beer, cake or whatever it is. So excuses will kill your resolutions.
Determination Fails When we set a goal, how much do you want it. Seriously? I speak behalf of my behaviour as well. Do you really want it bad enough that you will do whatever it takes? Will ya push yourself to get it. (Ok i’m talking about working out, here – you have to push). Or like you want to start a business, will you sacrifice your entertainment side to work hard. Determination. Do we have it?
Unsupportive Circles Doesn’t help man, when you hang out with people that are unmotivated and no only that they don’t even support you on your resolution. Putting you down will make you give up. It’ll be good if you can find people with the same goals as you. That’s the hard part. Finding people who are just as gung ho as you.

Forgetting your resolution At the beginning of the year, you’ll be all gung ho to make and do something. But give it a week, you’ll stop having that “I’m GONNA DO IT” feeling”. It’ll become more of “Huuh… i remember I was suppose to do something.. what was it? Oh nevermind it’ll come to me.” Something along those lines. In that sense, you gotta keep reminding yourself what was

Anyway that was good to just see the reasons. I mean the whole point of making a resolution is to set a goal for yourself to meet by the end of the year. Isn’t it? While on the way driving back from Penang I was talking to Mister G. We both started talking on goals for the year. For him he figures, not much point in making a resolution. So what he decided was to have a resolution that is in some ways more practical. He’s goal this year “Is be able to look back at 2009 and say that you know what I achieved something. And it’s worthwhile.” Reasonable, no!? Makes it easier too, it’s just one goal. As for me… I have too many things I want to do. These are my top three things… List yet agian lol. In priority order.

Resolution #1 – Portfolio Be in a film. And not just an extra again, but a film that at least will show something for my skills.
Resolution #2 – Personal Spend more time with the family and don’t get irritated with Mister G so much. (That’s two but falls in the same category)
Resolution #3 – Health Be really serious about my diet and health. All I’ve got to sell is my being. I’m not a walking billboard but if I don’t take care of my body, along with whatever assets and skills I may have. Nothing is going to sell.

I think it’s fairly realistic. Not too many things too.

But my main goal this year. Is to at least do a good movie. One solid movie. Last year my goal was to be in one production. In the end I was in more than just one. So bonus on my end. This year, i have to do something productive that can help me move. As the Japanese say… GAMBATE!!! and also in the words of Nike… once again - JUST DO IT! Bring it ON 2009! I’m gonna bulldose right through you.

‘Click’ Some Thoughts

Linora Low — Mon, 22 Dec 2008 17:21:52 +0000

Today was I having a rerun of some movies I got stored on my hard disk. And it just so happens that most of the movies i have are comedies with Adam Sandler starring in them. Which got me watching his movie ‘Click’ again. Adam Sandler is best known as the movie comedian. Hard to actually take most of his films seriously since they are always shown in a lighthearted manner. However i think that is the best thing about the stuff he’s done so far. Like ‘Click‘ and ‘You Don’t Mess With The Zohan‘, both touched on certain topics that left poignant thoughts in your head. What I just adored about ‘Click’, was despite all the goofy moments, words and actions. In the end there was a stronger message that Adam was hoping to share with it. Which was family comes first before your work or career. I think every one can relate to that problem. Do you pick your career or do you pick quality times with your family? Even more so when you don’t just have one family but you also have the family of a partner. Just too many things to consider – on that note anyway. How often do we just go through life not really enjoying it with your loved ones. Just watching it pass by because we are rushing to get to some bigshot promotion or whatever it is that one aims for. It’s a good thing for one to just sit back, take a breather and spend time with the things that matter.

‘Click’ touched me, like no comedy movie has done. And even though I’ve seen it easily 4-5 times now. It still makes me tear at the part where Adam’s character, Michael Newman, finds out that his father had passed away so he goes to the last moment he saw his dad. The last time he saw his dad it ended on a bad note because he was on ‘autopilot’ causing him to only be bothered about his work. That was also the last time he heard his father say he loved him. Another part of the movie that got me tearing again, was the very ending when he was trying to catch up with his grown up son who was about to leave the hospital. The shot and set up was fantastic. With him running in the rain to get to his son, Ben and when he ends up tripping over his feet. He has to squeeze every once of his energy to scream for Ben. Ben suddenly drops the umbrella and runs to Michael. That cracked and moved me. I feel this is his best work in terms of acting anyway. Sure may not be that different, but i just love movies that make you think about life. Topics that touch right here at the heart. It’s movies like – in my opinion – that stays close to home and makes a difference in lives. Click is a great for a laugh and also for some good loving thoughts on family.

5 Things That Break A Heart

Linora Low — Mon, 09 Jun 2008 06:21:57 +0000

This is not something I’m feeling now and I’m not getting emo. I just felt like writing something on the things that break a heart. My heart in particular and the situations when they have been broken.

The day I found out that I had to put my dog to sleep. I had to swipe the credit card which was to pay for him being put down. I had just gotten back from Penang that day and the first thing I had to do was head down to the vet, because everyone else was busy that day. My aunt had picked me up from the LRT and i settled the bill. Was pretty bad.. i didn’t think that it would’ve shook me up that much, since I had already known that he had to go to sleep. I didn’t hit me till i got to the vet, that he was gone. It’s a terrible feeling, to instantly know at that moment you lost something… even more so that it was a life. May not have been a person, but it was still a life..
The first time, I heard someone swear at me F*** Y**, and it is someone very close to me. Till this day, the memory of it is still in my head and I can still envision how the words were uttered at me. It can bring a tear to my eye, for it really did hurt me.
The occasions when i had some really bad arguments with my other half. They were really very bad and it was a bad pow wow. Words that that weren’t meant were exchanged, as a defense mechanism. I thought there was a sure break from there, from the way we both stormed away from one another. Calls were refused..this was all in a day by the way. Fights like these really are a pain…
The times, that I lose my temper and I end up going into a real tantrum with the people I’m close to. It is at those times, that I really hate myself for losing it. Of late I have been losing it and I don’t know why.. maybe it’s the lack of sleep, but i’ve been getting terribly irritated. When I snap, that’s when my heart breaks because I know I can look like a lil monster. When i start to be that monster, I know i’m letting not just myself down but the people whom i care about as well and it stabs me in the heart. Related with number 3..4 is also one of those things, which I know that is just not appealing to God’s eyes and that I’m behaving in a way which is unbecoming. The thought that I know this breaks God’s heart breaks mine directly.
…… I just realised… I don’t have a fifth thing that breaks my heart… and I want to keep it that way..

Ok I’m done with my “emo” post for today.

K.I.S.S.

Linora Low — Fri, 21 Mar 2008 03:16:42 +0000

Keep It Simple and Sweet. Keep It Simple and Short. Keep It Simple Stupid! Those are the main three things of how you would give the full version for K.I.S.S. Keeping things simple is always a great idea. I often make the mistake of sometimes doing things over the top, over exaggerating something, or just even in my design. I would want to shove so many things into something that I forget what my main purpose of designing something is even for. Or even maybe when it comes to talking, one can ramble on and on about something. When what they should be doing is just keeping it nice and short. Straight to the point and not go over flamboyant. The simplest things are the best things. Even when giving a gift, a small thing like a flower from the ground (preferably a live one of course and not one thats left on the road! ) or even a card or an sms to say something nice to another person, perks somebody up or tells them you care. So yes.. K.I.S.S people!

Slow Me Down

Linora Low — Wed, 19 Mar 2008 03:00:33 +0000

Sometimes, we take life at blinding speed. Everything happens so fast, changes that come out of where, ups and downs in a week. Joy that sometimes overwhelms you only to have a roller-coaster crash down to something which suddenly gets you all twisted up in side. Comfort zones, moved a bit and we find ourselves trying to adapt. Just need to slow down. To take control of the reigns and get yourself back on the horse again. Take a deep breath and focus. I want to let go and actually let myself fall for a while, but I know that if do I’ll waste time. So no.. I can’t fall but I need to just be free to think and recollect my thoughts on things. I absolutely love this song and it’s by the lovely actress Emmy Rossum. Rather hypnotic but it’s what i need at this point.

rushing and racing and running in circles moving so fast I’m forgetting my purpose blur of the traffic is sending me spinning getting nowhere

my head and my heart are colliding chaotic pace of the world I just wish I could stop it Try to appear like I’ve got it together I’m falling apart

save me somebody take my hand and lead me slow me down don’t let love pass me by just show me how cause I’m ready to fall

slow me down don’t let me live a lie before my life flies by I need you to slow me down

sometimes I fear that I might disappear in the blur of fast forward I falter again forgetting to breathe I need to sleep I’m getting nowhere

all that I’ve missed I see in the reflection pass me while I wasn’t paying attention tired of rushing, racing and running I’m falling apart

tell me oh won’t you take my hand and lead me slow me down don’t let love pass me by just show me how cause I’m ready to fall

slow me down don’t let me live a lie before my life flies by i need you to slow me down

just show me i need you to slow me down slow me down slow me down

the noise of the world is getting me caught up chasing the clock and i wish i could stop it just need to breathe somebody please slow me down It fascinates me that this young lady could come up with this song. It’s so ethereal. Emmy Rossum can sing people! The first time I heard her sing it was as Christine Daae in the movie Phantom of the Opera. I didn’t think much of it because i was comparing it too much to the ever wonderful singer Sarah Brightman.

Remember this girl from The Day After Tomorrow , Poseidon , The Phantom of the Opera and oh my gosh!!! She’s acting as Bulma in Dragonball.. ohh please let them make a good rendition of that Japanese anime.

Admitting Rejection

Linora Low — Thu, 13 Mar 2008 17:15:28 +0000

I ain’t no writer…But I sure hope that I am brave..

What I’m doing is tough… Tough on my mind, Tough on my heart, Tough on my confidence, Tough on my sanity…. Rejection is a painful thing, and it usually comes when you’re in a line that you are competing with tons of other people. Other people who may very well be better, prettier, more confident, have personality, the body, the experience. It’s a torturous labour to want to try to do something like this. You almost wonder why it is that those people who have the passion for the arts sometimes turn ‘cuckoo’ a bit, or maybe even go into a deep depression that for some may be hard to come out of. Why do I do this to myself? Why not choose something safer? Why not choose the thing that won’t cause me anxiety and emotional pain? ….. I suppose I do it because I want to. I choose to because I believe that it is something more and something can happen with it. Sounds so idealistic and almost illogical. But I have the feeling something good and rewarding can come out of it. Whatever it is I wish to really learn how to cope with the bad parts, that are not always rewarding…

“Dear God, I pray Lord with all my might and being, that I shall learn to accept the things that come my way and the things that are just not meant to be. I pray that instead of falling into a simpe, I shall think of them instead as learning curves and hopefully I can turn the negative result into a positive one. Take away my arrogance and naivety Lord. For I know nothing, and should not claim to think that I know anything at all. I pray for nothing more than to be an open student, always learning and willing to take in, the things that can help me to really grow. I pray Lord that you will guide me and let my heart and head be at peace… Amen.”

Disheartened

Linora Low — Tue, 26 Feb 2008 16:45:56 +0000

It is just one of those days, where I don’t know what to make of things. It’s 12.37 and I’m tired. But what has got me even more tired, is that I’m disheartened. Why? Because I keep hearing about negative about something, which i’m trying so hard to fight for, I’m trying to get involved and get myself out there as much as I can in what I hope to do. And it just really breaks my heart when people tell me that I can’t or that it is not worth it. More so I would hear this from the people around me, those that are closest to me. And it really just annoys me at first, but after a while, i’ll get upset over it. In my heart, at some point maybe I want to be in denial and just have some faith that what I dream for can someday be a reality. That there is a reason why people fight for certain things in life and it doesn’t matter how painful it or even how ridiculous it is. But it’s what they wish to go for. I’m debating here between passion and career. Really why work all the time, if it is something you don’t like. Why even bother? And so what if the passion you yearn for, makes one come home late at night, makes one have to spend countless hours waiting, or makes one just spend hours of preparation. I’m just disheartened about how opportunities just come by so slowly.

Do You Know How To Touch A Girl?

Linora Low — Thu, 20 Dec 2007 17:28:31 +0000

Today I was in the car driving up to Penang with Giden and he started an interesting if not awkward conversation topic. It was a whole guy girl topic and on relationships. Reason for this was because he doesn’t understand girls. I agree with him. I don’t get why they can’t get us at times. I mean half the time while the girl thinks of all the romantic and lovey dovey stuff.. this is what the guy will hope for.

photo taken from itickr.com Ok… I’ll be fair. Sometimes when we say something..we don’t really mean it. But rather we hope that you can learn how to read between the lines and get one simple message absolutely clear in your head. For the LAST time. Be NICE. I’m telling you, treat a girl nicely, be the sweetest, most charming and chivalrous creature on earth and you will have us hook line and sinker. This is not to say that we are easy but more so, girls like to know that they can be treated like a special object once in a while. Treat the girl like she is the most precious thing to have ever come across you. You don’t even need to buy her stuff! We may love shopping but really, we go for quality in the guy. If not what you’ll end up with is either us whacking you or some sort of temper tantrum and shelling. How? 5 simple ways, to keep your lady happy:-

Tell her every once in a while how much she means to you. A girl needs to know she means something to you. Albeit that it may sound very clingy and needy, even if she doesn’t say it, but in honest truth she needs to hear something meaningful from the one she likes / loves.
Look at her every once in a while.…and i mean LOOK. Just smile, and when she asks what. Just tell her how lovely she is. Girls have this thing where they always hope for the LOOK from their guy or guys (Refer to previous post The Look). It is extra brownie points when you actually tell her she is pretty …every alternate days… Hey she goes through a lot just to make herself pretty for YOU!
Talk sweetly with her and have a cuddling session if need be. It’ll be sweet for her to know that you like to manja her once in a while. Please also take note what kinda of Manja-ing she actually prefers. I.E. sweet talk, teasing her all the way down to hugs.
In relation to number 3, please for crying out loud take the time out to really KNOW your girl. The small things that are sentimental to her, mean something. So don’t be an oxy-moron and just fling them to one corner of your brain.
And of course most importantly…Listen to her when she says there is something important. She takes the time to listen to your needs. So I think it only fair that the other half does the same. I can assure you, do those 5 things and boys you won’t have a single problem. This would also work with those trying to hook up with a new girl. But no guarantees.

I also hope that this will clear up the confusing moments that you have with understanding what a girl wants. Conclusion: BE NICE! and she’ll be nice to you. She just needs to know she can trust you with her heart. Every girl wants her Knight in shining armor or Prince Charming, just like how you boys dream about two girls together…sheesh. So boys… Do you Know How To Touch A Girl?

Artist: Jojo Song: How to Touch a Girl.

The Lonely Flower

Linora Low — Mon, 17 Dec 2007 15:31:56 +0000

Have you guys ever felt sometimes you are the only person around in an area. Or like you are the only one that behaves like you, has your mentality and has interests that only a person like you would be bothered with. That everyone else around you fit to the social rules that have been set for them. And you hope to remove yourself away from those ideologies? Yeah I feel that way sometimes… alone. Just like this flower, in the distance. However, do we feel alone because we allow ourselves to be? It is our choice. That we remove ourselves from those that care for us, those that matter to us. Do remove ourselves from the other leaves because we are tired of searching for others like us? Maybe we think we can’t find others like us, because we aren’t looking in front of us. Maybe the ones we seek are closer than we think. Just that all the leaves are always in the way, that they filter our eyes from that which we desire. They are just hidden. What we need is just some light to be shed upon us. Only then perhaps, we shall realise that we aren’t as alone as we think ourselves to be. Rather there are a lot like us out there… Odd post…. but felt like it when I saw the single flower in the tree.. It was only then when I started looking harder that i found there were actually more flowers up in that tree.. huh..

What is this…?

Linora Low — Mon, 19 Nov 2007 06:30:46 +0000

I am not one to get political and I don’t really intend to. But what I have been reading in the papers of late is quite appalling and even embarrassing! What am I talking about? First there was the Bersih Protest that went on the 10th of Nov. I wasn’t around that weekend to see the Yellow Walk. But heard that some people I knew were there. I was also concerned that they might have been arrested or something, Thank God though nothing like that happened. The walk was huge and reminds me of something like this that happened in Singapore which was documented as an Independent Film. The Bersih Protest was to demand electoral reformation.

“Bersih is calling on the head of state to ensure that national elections, expected early next year, are fair. It is demanding the removal of phantom voters from electoral rolls, the use of indelible ink to prevent illegal and multiple voting, the abolition of postal voting which is abused by the ruling parties and equal access to the state-owned media for all political parties.” - World Socialist

Coming from Kenny’s blog, he had put up a post of Malaysian Information Ministers having an interview with an Al-Jazeera reporter. The whole interview was a real joke, first with the minister stating that the protest was allowed by the police without violence, we ‘are’ a democratic country, then suddenly the protest is illegal…. btw his Ingrreiisshh is terrible!!!! You can see the interview with a transcript there. And then just not too long ago, we had the Broom Award incident. My gowssh!! Even for a joke it is bad.. and by a minister at that? What are you people thinking..? Then from broom it became a sacking threat to the employees and then finally the dude said the broom award shall remain. This is to really tell them to buck up… and what was this for? Because they miscalculated or didn’t collect some financial taxes… What the heck????

I shall hang this broom proudly on my wall… and cherish it forever!!

Yes… I’m really “proud of all this”!