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Admitting Rejection

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I ain’t no writer…But I sure hope that I am brave..

All Great Writers Start Their Journey Bravely

What I’m doing is tough… Tough on my mind, Tough on my heart, Tough on my confidence, Tough on my sanity…. Rejection is a painful thing, and it usually comes when you’re in a line that you are competing with tons of other people. Other people who may very well be better, prettier, more confident, have personality, the body, the experience. It’s a torturous labour to want to try to do something like this. You almost wonder why it is that those people who have the passion for the arts sometimes turn ‘cuckoo’ a bit, or maybe even go into a deep depression that for some may be hard to come out of. Why do I do this to myself? Why not choose something safer? Why not choose the thing that won’t cause me anxiety and emotional pain? ….. I suppose I do it because I want to. I choose to because I believe that it is something more and something can happen with it. Sounds so idealistic and almost illogical. But I have the feeling something good and rewarding can come out of it. Whatever it is I wish to really learn how to cope with the bad parts, that are not always rewarding…
“Dear God, I pray Lord with all my might and being, that I shall learn to accept the things that come my way and the things that are just not meant to be. I pray that instead of falling into a simpe, I shall think of them instead as learning curves and hopefully I can turn the negative result into a positive one. Take away my arrogance and naivety Lord. For I know nothing, and should not claim to think that I know anything at all. I pray for nothing more than to be an open student, always learning and willing to take in, the things that can help me to really grow. I pray Lord that you will guide me and let my heart and head be at peace… Amen.”

Disheartened

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It is just one of those days, where I don’t know what to make of things. It’s 12.37 and I’m tired. But what has got me even more tired, is that I’m disheartened. Why? Because I keep hearing about negative about something, which i’m trying so hard to fight for, I’m trying to get involved and get myself out there as much as I can in what I hope to do. And it just really breaks my heart when people tell me that I can’t or that it is not worth it. More so I would hear this from the people around me, those that are closest to me. And it really just annoys me at first, but after a while, i’ll get upset over it. In my heart, at some point maybe I want to be in denial and just have some faith that what I dream for can someday be a reality. That there is a reason why people fight for certain things in life and it doesn’t matter how painful it or even how ridiculous it is. But it’s what they wish to go for. I’m debating here between passion and career. Really why work all the time, if it is something you don’t like. Why even bother? And so what if the passion you yearn for, makes one come home late at night, makes one have to spend countless hours waiting, or makes one just spend hours of preparation. I’m just disheartened about how opportunities just come by so slowly.

Do You Know How To Touch A Girl?

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Today I was in the car driving up to Penang with Giden and he started an interesting if not awkward conversation topic. It was a whole guy girl topic and on relationships. Reason for this was because he doesn’t understand girls. I agree with him. I don’t get why they can’t get us at times. I mean half the time while the girl thinks of all the romantic and lovey dovey stuff.. this is what the guy will hope for.

photo taken from itickr.com Ok… I’ll be fair. Sometimes when we say something..we don’t really mean it. But rather we hope that you can learn how to read between the lines and get one simple message absolutely clear in your head. For the LAST time. Be NICE. I’m telling you, treat a girl nicely, be the sweetest, most charming and chivalrous creature on earth and you will have us hook line and sinker. This is not to say that we are easy but more so, girls like to know that they can be treated like a special object once in a while. Treat the girl like she is the most precious thing to have ever come across you. You don’t even need to buy her stuff! We may love shopping but really, we go for quality in the guy. If not what you’ll end up with is either us whacking you or some sort of temper tantrum and shelling. How? 5 simple ways, to keep your lady happy:-

  1. Tell her every once in a while how much she means to you. A girl needs to know she means something to you. Albeit that it may sound very clingy and needy, even if she doesn’t say it, but in honest truth she needs to hear something meaningful from the one she likes / loves.
  2. Look at her every once in a while.…and i mean LOOK. Just smile, and when she asks what. Just tell her how lovely she is. Girls have this thing where they always hope for the LOOK from their guy or guys (Refer to previous post The Look). It is extra brownie points when you actually tell her she is pretty …every alternate days… Hey she goes through a lot just to make herself pretty for YOU!

  3. Talk sweetly with her and have a cuddling session if need be. It’ll be sweet for her to know that you like to manja her once in a while. Please also take note what kinda of Manja-ing she actually prefers. I.E. sweet talk, teasing her all the way down to hugs.

  4. In relation to number 3, please for crying out loud take the time out to really KNOW your girl. The small things that are sentimental to her, mean something. So don’t be an oxy-moron and just fling them to one corner of your brain.
  5. And of course most importantly…Listen to her when she says there is something important. She takes the time to listen to your needs. So I think it only fair that the other half does the same. I can assure you, do those 5 things and boys you won’t have a single problem. This would also work with those trying to hook up with a new girl. But no guarantees.
I also hope that this will clear up the confusing moments that you have with understanding what a girl wants. Conclusion: BE NICE! and she’ll be nice to you. She just needs to know she can trust you with her heart. Every girl wants her Knight in shining armor or Prince Charming, just like how you boys dream about two girls together…sheesh. So boys… Do you Know How To Touch A Girl?

Artist: Jojo Song: How to Touch a Girl.

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The Lonely Flower

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Have you guys ever felt sometimes you are the only person around in an area. Or like you are the only one that behaves like you, has your mentality and has interests that only a person like you would be bothered with. That everyone else around you fit to the social rules that have been set for them. And you hope to remove yourself away from those ideologies? Yeah I feel that way sometimes… alone. Just like this flower, in the distance. image-003_exposure_resize.jpg However, do we feel alone because we allow ourselves to be? It is our choice. That we remove ourselves from those that care for us, those that matter to us. Do remove ourselves from the other leaves because we are tired of searching for others like us? Maybe we think we can’t find others like us, because we aren’t looking in front of us. image-010_resize.jpg Maybe the ones we seek are closer than we think. Just that all the leaves are always in the way, that they filter our eyes from that which we desire. They are just hidden. image-007_resize_resize.jpg What we need is just some light to be shed upon us. Only then perhaps, we shall realise that we aren’t as alone as we think ourselves to be. Rather there are a lot like us out there… image-011_resize_resize.jpg Odd post…. but felt like it when I saw the single flower in the tree.. It was only then when I started looking harder that i found there were actually more flowers up in that tree.. huh..

What is this…?

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I am not one to get political and I don’t really intend to. But what I have been reading in the papers of late is quite appalling and even embarrassing! What am I talking about? First there was the Bersih Protest that went on the 10th of Nov. I wasn’t around that weekend to see the Yellow Walk. But heard that some people I knew were there. I was also concerned that they might have been arrested or something, Thank God though nothing like that happened. The walk was huge and reminds me of something like this that happened in Singapore which was documented as an Independent Film. The Bersih Protest was to demand electoral reformation.

“Bersih is calling on the head of state to ensure that national elections, expected early next year, are fair. It is demanding the removal of phantom voters from electoral rolls, the use of indelible ink to prevent illegal and multiple voting, the abolition of postal voting which is abused by the ruling parties and equal access to the state-owned media for all political parties.” -  World Socialist
Coming from Kenny’s blog, he had put up a post of Malaysian Information Ministers having an interview with an Al-Jazeera reporter. The whole interview was a real joke, first with the minister stating that the protest was allowed by the police without violence, we ‘are’ a democratic country, then suddenly the protest is illegal…. btw his Ingrreiisshh is terrible!!!! You can see the interview with a transcript there. And then just not too long ago, we had the Broom Award incident. My gowssh!! Even for a joke it is bad.. and by a minister at that? What are you people thinking..? Then from broom it became a sacking threat to the employees and then finally the dude said the broom award shall remain. This is to really tell them to buck up… and what was this for? Because they miscalculated or didn’t collect some financial taxes… What the heck????

 I shall hang this broom proudly on my wall… and cherish it forever!!

 Yes… I’m really “proud of all this”!